While it may be described as unusual for a child w/ autism to seek out attention, Bub thrives on attention. He creates antics to GET you to pay attention to him, and loves it when you join in & play w/ him. He even gets Z to play w/ him even though she has no clue as to what she is supposed to be doing.
and then I think about what is life going to be like once Z catches up to Bub and surpasses his skills and mentality level? Will I have spent enough time with her by then to teach her to be loving, patient, compassionate, and kind to her brother? Will I spend too much time trying to help Bub compensate for her skills and make her bitter and resentful of her brother? Will I be able to continue balancing the two of them in a way that leaves everyone happy, or will I be a spaz and blind to the reality of the situation.
Right now they love each other very much. I hope I will be able to keep the balance so they continuing loving each other the rest of their lives. (I'm getting all sobby now, I really suck today- sorry)