Just too old for this.

I think I have hit a tolerance wall.  My filter is starting to erode for my online class discussions. 
One of the project I have to work on is a proposal for an app college students need.  it needs to be multimedia  (ie, make a powerpoint with a video in it and some pictures, maybe some other graphics and a chart/graph for some rando statistics)

This is so below my skill set.

I feel like this class is worthless.  I spent 6 hours on my last project.  we were supposed to spend 2.5 weeks on creating it.  I spent 6 hours TOTAL in one sitting- scanning references and writing around high points with numbers.  I got a 96%  4 points off.  mainly because I didn't do any long quotes to show I know how to indent a paragraph quote.

well, maybe this class isn't completely worthless.  my BS skills are improving. 

And this is the point I keep coming back to- if this little effort is needed to get an "A", what in the world kind of standard is my work being compared to?  and what are the other papers looking like if my prof says "BRAVO" of my 6-hours-of-constantly-rolling-my-eyes-while-I-worked-on-it paper?  Seriously, that total tripe I turned it only had 4 points taken off...4.  What kind of degree is this going to be worth if my work is judged so poorly.

I am SO glad I dropped out of college at 21 and never finished my english degree.  if I had finished, I would probably be JUST like this guy- unable to see through the crappy content because it uses the techniques taught.

Bub's path diverting?

We are at the point where we have to decide Bub's educational path.  We have a choice to keep him in an primarily educational setting, or start him 1 year early on functional skills/life-skills as the primary focus of his education.

I'm not ready for this decision.

And hormones....at 45 I can't rule out the reality of hormones jumping in to bring the drama back into the decision making.

There is never a good time to sit and think things through, much less get things accomplished well.

Guess keeping on keeping on is the best I've got right now.

prayers all- N