greenies

Wow, I have a friend that is super green.  No, really.  This person is so green it scares me.  I mean, I know we are all supposed to go green, and protect the environment, and save our resources, and blah blah blah...but this goes FAR beyond that.  Everything out of him is so green-pc that it makes me start to have anti-green thoughts just to balance it out.  For example, if someone should start to go on and on about global warming and CO2 emissions...I just want to go start spraying aqua-net at them and start tossing my yoplait containers in the woods w/o crushing them first and tossing 6-pack plastic ring-thingies into the Alaskan coast-line all while laughing like a maniac!

IT'S LIKE A KNEE-JERK REACTION!!!  I CAN NOT HELP IT.
(I am so wrong)

Am I the only one like this?  I saw some British video about people who weren't green getting blown up.  I thought I'd be the secret rebel, and SAY I'd do something green, and then go chop down a rain-forest.

Here is that commercial...thanks to Mike K. for posting it on FB...it describes to me the very worst of the green movement, and embodies why I must rebel against the greenies.

Tired Sunday

Another Sunday, we missed church due to Miss Z being the award winning crab apple this morning.  She decided to wake up around 11pm the night before and not go back to sleep until around 2am...w/ momma being up w/ her....and then woke up at 4am....getting the idea of the cause of the crab apple award, hmmm?

So, Joe gets up w/ her 4am antics and lets me sleep until it's too late to go to church, and time for Z's nap.  yayee.  well, at least I got to have coffee w/ only 1 kiddo begging off sips from me...yes Bub and Z love coffee...at least my coffee which has sugar and vanilla Silk in it.

after Z woke up again, Joe took Bub to Lowe's for outside work stuff.  Bub's new passion is going outside and helping Daddy w/ anything that needs helping, raking, digging, carrying branches to the burn pile, etc...  Now that we have a lawn mower, Joe is trying to clean up the yard so he can mow it without dismembering himself from random flying debris.  (member how I mentioned the yard has NOT been kept up very well?  Yeah, there's all sorts of sharp edged stuff we're finding).  Z and I stayed indoor (allergies) and cleaned out a bunch of boxes, threw stuff away, and put away at least half of the laundry pile.  Did I say "we"?  Actually it was me doing it all and telling Z to not mess up the different piles of trash, keep, shred, give.

Thankfully, the trash and give piles were the biggest.  I always feel better after I go through a box of crap and throw over half of it away.  Every time we move I start freaking out cuz in the short time of residency in one location, we have managed to double our supply of crap!  I look at these boxes, many of which are still unpacked from 2 moves ago and really start to wonder how much it would take to make me considered a full-blown hoarder!  That scares me...but it's not hard to get rid of the stuff, it's hard to get started.  I just feel so overwhelmed that I just close the door or shove the crap back into the hidey-hole it was in so I don't have to look at it.  I don't want to keep the crap, I just don't want to spend the time on going through it...but I don't want to just toss out the whole thing either, since my organizing skills are "poor" I usually only have a very general idea what is in the boxes...and there is usually at least ONE thing I need to keep, so through the whole box I must go.  blah.  Like today, one of the boxes had crap and then I found my Henry (my favorite stuffed animal from childhood).  I can't toss my Henry dog, even tho he is beat up like nobody's business!  Bub found Henry b4 I could figure out where to store him, and started pulling out his stuffing from one of the many badly attempted fix-up jobs of mine when I was still under 10. lol!!!!  That was worth pulling him out I guess.  :)

Anyhow, Bub and Joe got a bunch of herbs planted in our front tier-thingy...so dill, cilantro, basil, and parsley for me this year!  woo hoo!  love those men of mine!

My Bub

So, My little man has been wearing underwear since Wednesday and has not had a single accident.  can I say how excited I am?  I am so proud of the little guy.  I know most of the autie parents I talk to said 7 was the average age of potty-training IF potty-training was going to happen, so Bub is ahead by 1/2 a year!  yayee for my BUB!  no more UnderJams and Huggies Overnites...do you have any idea how expensive they can be?!?  and I scour the internet for coupons.  Yayee, I can use the $40-60/month to save up for a family vacation in August!  woo hoo!

In recognition of my Bub's accomplishment I got him a box of dominoes.  He's very happy with them.  he likes counting the dots.  as for now, he's reading his catalogs...it's some kind of science-toy one.   I ordered a bunch of catalogs a few weeks ago, and they started coming in this week.  I'm going to have to look for more.  :)

Nubs for now!

preping for ARDs

For anyone out there who has kids w/ special needs, we have entered the time of year for ARDs...yayee us.  For those of you who don't have to go thru this process w/ the public school system, and ARD is a meeting w/ your child's teacher, administrator, speech therapist (if applicable), occupational therapist (if applicable), physical therapist (if applicable), and the person who decides if the child qualifies for special needs education (Forgot the job title...oops.) and the parent/s.  so there is a lot of folks in one room.  and we discuss his progress over the past year and plan what his goals for the next year will be and what the setting will be.

Thankfully, most of my ARDs have been very calm and agreeable, as I have a rough idea what I want to see for Bub and what they want to do w/ Bub.  This year, when I got the invitation I sent it back w/ a note saying I wanted to discuss options to see Bub have more inclusion w/ his neurotypical peers (for those of you who are not autie parents, neurotypical means NORMAL)  *lucky bastages*   lol.  *kinda*

So Bub's teacher asked me to come for a parent-teacher conference today.  It went well, and she really liked my ideas for Bub to have greater inclusion.  Oh yeah, I haven't mentioned specifically what my idea was, have I?  I am a nerd...sorry.

Bub's campus has a deaf education classroom, Bub's main modality of communication is ASL, sooooo  (kinda see where I'm going???)  Let's get Bub in w/ the deaf education kids who ARE behaviorally "normal" and age appropriate normal, and get Mr. Man to model more signing w/ kids his age.  cuz right now, Bub is one of the oldest kids in his class,

So, Me and Bub's teacher are on the same page, which will make this idea much more likely to happen next year.  Yayee for parent involvement!

However....his teacher shared some disturbing info about how special ed is going to be managed under the current school superintendant...info this autie mom is going to have to start doing something about and start advocating and riling up some other parents...which isn't easy cause we special needs parents are TIRED ALL THE TIME!  you have no idea.  think of taking care of your kid after your kid just took a hit of acid...that is our ALL THE TIME!!!  so getting additional parental involvement may not happen, but I can try.  I'll write about that next time.  I'm running on 4 hrs sleep following a 18hr day.  must sleep.

loves to all! N

So much for a quiet afternoon

We go to Lowes to get a lawn mower. Z gets overheated, her bottom half is as red as a lobster and she won't stop crying, we rush home and I plop her in a tepid bath, she's still crying, so I plop in w/ her, which makes her stop crying b/c seeing momma in the tub w/ all her clothes on is pretty funny to a baby, I guess....
so after a half hour of tepid bath, her color is normal again, 1/2 a bottle of pedialyte is down her gobbet, I hear Bub screaming/crying.

fun fun fun

Well, while I'm fixing up the Zbird, Daddy took Bub outside to play. Mr. Man thought stacking bricks on a pole was a smart thing indeed...until they fell on his back that is.
So now Bub is hurting, and crying, and hurling himself against the wall, floor, daddy, etc... I don't see any cuts or initial bruising on him, but he keeps pointing to an old scab on his arm...momma's not slow...he wants band-aids to make him better. 3 weeks ago I had to beg this kid to keep a band-aid on for more than 2 min. Now he wants them everywhere! So 2 on his back "Owies" and one on the old scab, and another one to join the one already on his thumb...and then Momma decides it's time to make him laugh, so I put one on his nose...I was right, it did make him laugh and he climbed up on the counter so he could see himself in the mirror. Then I got out 2 special "suckies" (tylenol meltaways- if I tell him it's medicine he won't eat it...if I tell him it's candy he'll try to sneak it, hence a special word that is neither one or the other....sigh)

Dinner consisted of peas and chicken nuggets and kool aid. Momma was too tired to do anything that would actually take effort...the kids loved it tho...yeah, thanks bupchiks.

I swear, they are already partners in crime, whatever one of them does, the other tries to top it. I am so toast in a few years....

Renting

Since it will be a LOOONG time before Joe & I can manage to save up anything near enough to buy a house, we rent. We're really lucky this time around, w/ the house we are renting. It's a two bedroom 1 bath, BUT it's on a HUGE property. I would be very surprised if it wasn't at least an one acre lot. and it has lots of tree (which I love), but a lot of oaks. phooey. I like the acorns, cuz Bub likes to collect them and count them, BUT the leaves don't come down til spring...sooo are you following me on this one? yep...they're just falling now...just when we almost finished getting all the fall leaves raked up. boo!

Add to that, I'm pretty sure most of the leaves we've been raking are NOT just from this last fall (we moved in Nov. '10), so we've been having burn-piles nearly every week since we moved in. It's getting kinda old.
and now to add to the leaf detail, pollen is everywhere, my green car has turned yellow once again.

LOL- I just remembered! One burn-pile a month or two ago, I had the "great" idea to have Bub and Joe toast some marshmallows, cuz Bub loves a marshmallow! well this great idea started to sour almost immediately. Bub snabs the marshmallow bag and runs off, so we have to chase him to get them back, and during the chase MANY marshmallows ended up inside bub. *surprise* then we finally get a marshmallow on a stick, Bub decides he's too afraid of the fire pit to toast it. *sigh* so Joe toasts it FOR bub, and brings it over to him. Mr. Man sees his nice white marshmallow has turned brown, touches it and it kinda sticks to his finger a little. he runs away. Joe tries to show him that he can eat it, but Bub has decided we are mental and will show no intent of eating the toasted marshmallow. meanwhile, we have wasted an hour and a bag of marshmallows for nothing. Oh, I love my life, lol.

"poop incidents"

Just to clarify for anyone who may not be completely familiar w/ my personal lexicon, a "poop incident" is when Bub either poops in his diaper, takes the diaper off & some of it falls out on the floor, his hands, the wall, etc... OR (even better) Bub realizes he's about to poop, but even tho he's now clicked onto to the sensation, he hasn't clicked to realizing he needs to get his butt on the toilet pronto, so he takes the diaper off and poos on the floor....but it HAS clicked w/ him that pooping on the floor is not appreciated by Momma and Dad, so he then attempts to hide it under toys, books, clothes, basically anything loose in his room.

Now keep in mind, Mr. Man ONLY does this in HIS room, typically only at nite during his cool-down before bed or after lights out. Joe and I are out of our minds trying to figure out how to help him get thru this and move on to using the potty. Intellectually, we KNOW he really can't help it, he hasn't processed thru this yet..but at 2am waking up to a poop incident, it's sooo hard to be patient. SO hard.

It's been spring break this week, PLUS the time change so Bub is all messed up in his routines and we've been dealing w/ this multiple times this week. and I've been working since Wed, so Joe's been having to deal w/ this by himself mostly. At least when we're both home, One of us can haul Bub to the tub and clean him up while the other does poop cleanup detail, but it's hard to do both by yourself. Even tho Bub is safe and capable of taking a bath by himself, if he's not checked on every few minutes, you can walk into the bathroom and find the entire contents of the tub on the floor and a nekid mr. man sitting *in* the sink squishing the hand-soap into unusable goo...or all your toothpaste has turned into a hat, or now you only have 1 contact left out of the pair you had...or Bub has decided to go bald again because Daddy forgot to lock up his electric beard trimmer....the list is endless, just like Bub's natural talent to cause mischief. sigh.

but at least today, he got into writing letters and numbers. I started writing out 1-20 and he kept signing more, so we went all the way up to 50. I was trying to show him that the tens are just like when you count 1-10, it's the same pattern, but you just add more digits. I have no idea how much of that clicked to him, but after we were done, every time he went back into the kitchen he stopped and looked at the numbers, pointed to each of them, in order and was smiling...so something trickled in, I just don't know how much.

And then, Zb decided to wiggle into the cupboards w/ the pots and get stuck...much rejoicing was heard after Momma helped her wiggle her chubby-bubby self out. lol. Bub thought it was hilarious and laughed his butt off.

anyhow, I'm going to sleep now, a 4 hr nap after a 19 hr day does not really cut it for me.
Nubs!

ridiculous people

I get soooo exasperated w/ people who are ridiculous! Today I had someone tell me I make them nervous bc I'm always watching what they're doing... Hello!!! I kinda HAVE to have a general idea of what is being done to my pts, I kinda have a legal requirement to be responsible for anything/everything that is done or not done to them....and I (that's ME, not you) hold the blame *ie: legal consequences* if anything bad happens (even if someone else does it) ...I (that's ME again, not you) am the one who would have to answer the why and how comes of any negative outcomes.

But keep in mind, I am not SPYING on anyone, I am not compiling a master-list of anyone's mistakes in the evil plan of making anyone look bad.

(begin sarcastic rant)
YES....*insert maniacal evil-scientist voice here* I am the mastermind of retribution !!! I will nit-pick everything YOU DO...HAHAHAHAHA
(end sarcastic rant)

whatever. Really, how I look at this ridiculous tirade is ... if you are SO worried about me watching you, WHY are you worried if you are doing your job the way you should?

Good golly, some people just try to suck the joy out of any room they enter...

Don't know why, but all of this reminds me of one of my favorite all time quotes...it's from Priscilla Queen of the Desert,
"Why don't you light your tampon-string on fire? It's the biggest bang you're ever going to get."

Bahahahahahahaha.....man that makes me giggle. : )

Nubs to all. even to this person who I apparently make so uncomfortable.... :)

quiet times

I do want to share that Z has started to give kisses! 1st time I saw it was 2 days ago. So that would be what? 3/15? so basically 13 mo. yayee for my Z-bird! it's very sloppy at the moment, she needs more practice, so MORE kisses for Momma, woo hoo! :)

Have a rare moment of quiet time during my current rotation, Bub and Joe are at therapy & Z went down for a nap (!), I'm currently awake before I have to get ready for day 2 of my scheduled 4. usually I don't wake up until 2pm when I work, but I got up at 12ish for some reason. I'll prolly regret it around 3am tonite, but oh well, that's what coffee is for! lol. I should put clothes away, but I'm rationalizing that doing so will prolly wake up Z, and I'd rather be lazy...Yayee Lazy!

anyhow, hope today is a good day for all :)
Loves!

Just for Lisa

I now declare that Lisa B. may refer to Z as "Lisa" on this blog. I however, reserve the right to call her "Z" (or any other pet name) as I see fit. LOLOLOLOL!

Dagnabit! I miss you Lisa. Get yer a** to TX someday ;)

Hello again

Once again, I will try to be a faithful blogger....Not so sure how that's going to work, BUT I find I really enjoy reading my older posts and seeing the pictures I posted...so even if NO ONE ever reads this but me.

SOOO- I think my last entry was in my 1st semester of nursing school in 2009. well. I graduated, had a baby, got a job, and got a 2nd job which is currently my job. I'm in the field I REALLY wanted, special populations pediatrics (I work in a long-term and acute center for disabled children). Lots of people expect me to be depressed working w/ these kids who mostly can't do anything but sleep and cry (in their view), or that I have to "be a special kind of person to do that" (insert MAJOR eye-rolling). I love these kids, and each one of them has a different personality and lovability-factor (my invented idea for it). It doesn't depress me at all, it actually makes me thankful for how much Bub CAN do...and these days he's doing a lot, like counting to 10 on his fingers, writing his name, and just today he started learning how to roller-skate w/ daddy! He's also adjusting well to Z-bird, his little 1 y/o sister, he sometimes forgets she's a person, not a toy...but then he sometimes forgets that I'M a person and not a jungle-gym.....lol.

Anyway...currently my free-time (HAH!) consists of moderating b/c Z-bear's need to explore and Bub's need to create and maintain elaborate constructions (hearafter referred to as "elaborations")...the -maintaining- of the elaborations is the problem....So the new-ish rule Bub is adjusting to is, "if you bring your toys into the hall, kitchen or living room Z gets to play too, if you don't want her to play w/ your toys, they have to stay in your room" Z, much to her disappointment is NOT allowed in Bub's room....we have up a baby-gate that Bub can navigate over, but she can't; much to her chagrin. she'll just stand on the outside and squeal at him until he gets tired of it, and closes his door. lol :)

Joe is back to being a Full-time Daddy, and part-time WOWer (the part when 1-I'm home and awake, 2- the kids are asleep or 3-Z is asleep and Bub is creating elaborations in his room) actually, he's pretty good at it and gets invited to special raids, dungeons, and other weird stuff.

so, that's kinda my update. I sleep, play w/ my kids, make some meals, and work. yeah, that's about it. When I'm really lucky I actually see a friend once a month outside of church, but that's kinda stretching it...I think I need to change that soon!!! miss my friends and talking in a voice that isn't designed for a baby. :)

Happy new year update

Ok, I know I've had time off, but did nothing here until now....I suck...what else is new?? :)

Mr. man is doing good...I had something to say earlier when I logged on...but I have forgotten what it was...

oh well.

Loves to all.
N

Well...there it is.

Just finished a pharm quiz on anticoagulants...yayee.
So busy just now, it's driving me crazy.

Bub's getting over some wierd tummy virus that gave him diarrhea w/o a fever. I think Joe's next and me too if I'm not careful. I just keep eating my vitamins and plow on.

I have a HESI for foundations on Thurs (HESI is a hugely hard and crabby standardized test that we HAVE to get a 850 or higher on....bleah....) Next week I have pharm exam #6, Pharm lab practical, and Pharm HESI. BLEAH!!!

But! after that there is only finals and clinicals before Christmas break...so I need to hang on until then cuz the end is nigh.

Anyhow.
Loves to you all!
N.

PS- Mom & Dad, incase I don't get a chance to call this wk (studying vs sleeping) I got the apples and they are yummy! I was so glad you ran into Mike & Bobbi too! I hope you gave them a big hug for me!!!!!! NUBS!

TMBG moment

"Life's just a mood ring we're not allowed to see."

That is all.

Loves

tired tired tired

very tired.
very very tired
SOOO tired...

I just read 7 chapters about cardiac & related drugs.
half of these drugs do 5 different things and the other half have the most bizarre names like fluortetrahydrocondithiaminephrenia
...ok, I'm exaggerating, but still....what the cob? who are these people who name this stuff?
They deserve to be locked up in a room filled with the most boring people for 1 week a year just to comprehend what mass confusion/frustration they have initiated with these drug names.

And in boring...I mean people like the insurance sales man in "groundhog day"... -that- kind of boring person. not dull necessarily...more like annoying but polite so you have no tangible reason to smack them in the face...EVEN THO you REALLY WANT TO....you know?

ok, my sleep deprived mind is jumping off at the deep end. I think to sleep, perchance to dream would be an excellent idea for this student nurse.....

Nitey nite.
Neebs

PS- Bub starts the horseback riding therapy next week! YAYEE!

crow pie

After being chastized by my big-little bro for mentioning that I miss Dawn's blogging updates, I realized I had been somewhat neglectful of my own...so I had better put something up PDQ (or since I have to use medical abbreviations...."STAT and prn")

Well, I'm still sitting w/ a high B average that the OCD part of me is very unhappy with, but the realistic part of me (the part that actually wants more than 4 hours of sleep a night) is QUITE happy with.

I got invited to join Phi Theta Kappa, the 2-yr college version of Phi Beta Kappa...so I s/b pretty darn happy that I'm getting a B and retaining my sleep and sanity.

I realized that doing my reading via computer is NOT a good fit for me. I am not able to read as quickly and I don't retain as much as when I use my actual book. However, I do VERY well taking notes in class ON my computer, since I can type fast, have good accuracy, and don't need to look at my fingers now that I am used to typing on a smaller than standard keyboard
(Boy am I GLAD I never liked having long fingernails)

Because of HIPPA laws, I am not able to write or talk about my actual clinical experience, and no I will not make exceptions because I really don't like the idea of being fined outrageous amounts of money and possible criminal consequences...so I will just say, I felt silly....I felt like I didn't do enough, I felt like I should have taken more charge and did less pussy-footing...but I was nervous, and I didn't want to be too intrusive.
Then while reflecting on the experience as I did my HOUR DRIVE BACK TO SCHOOL *huff* I decided that if I am afraid of being intrusive, I need to get over it, cuz if I'm not being "intrusive" I could end up really hurting someone thru lack of care or negligence, so I HAVE to get over it.
What's really hard for me, is that I am not a very good chit-chatter-er, so I have to get better at that to help me create a level comfort and trust, esp if I'm going to be doing a lot of ...well, what I had to do.... use your imagination. :p

Well, back to studying for my Monday test. (yes, there is a major test EVERY monday)

Loves to all! Neebs!

one more week done

Whew,
4 weeks into this adventure of becoming an RN and I am already POOPED!
Not to mention the lack of electricity this week due to IKE wiping out East Texas.

I have 2 tests done, that I got very high B's on (yayee!)
I have passed my skills checks for:
hand washing
isolation protocols
Vital stat taking (B/P, pulse, respiration)

I must be ready to display my knowledge of client movements on monday as well as be tested on 6 classes of drugs.

OY! I got a LOOOOONG weekend ahead of me.

BTW- BUB is 4 today!
4 yrs ago , I was in a hosp not able to stand yet from the spinal tap and trying to figure out how me and Joe would do this parent thing.
I think we've figured out a good portion to start with so far *winks*

g-nite folks!

N

the bird that starts with the letter "X"

hey Mom,
I found the bird that starts with the letter "x", it's a xenops.

I put in a link for more info on them, it's kinda cute & I will prolly send you a copy. (click on the title of today's blog to go there)

well, today Dorlaine was braver than I am, she took Bub AND Cousin "K" to the movies!!!!
(she let me stay home & study, which I am REALLY greatful for!!!)

They went to see "kung-fu panda"
I made snack packs for them as Bub is not able to eat movie theater foods being gfcf and all...
They had gfcf popcorn, jelly-beans, lollies, and some parve kosher taffy I found that stated it was gluten free!!!

they didn't make it thru the whole 90-min movie tho, Dorlaine reported that they both got antsy and sticky within an hour, so they left early...which was ok, b/c Cousin K had already seen it, ("It's a good movie auntie Nina, there isn't any bad parts...it's PG!!! REALLY!") (hehehehe) and bub was sticky... Sticky Bub is never a fun Mr. man....he gets crabby about being sticky after a while....

Also, Bub got his jumbo raisins today....for once he has solid BM, but they are TOO solid. Poor guy, he's freaking out every time he sees the wipey comin for to clean him up. *sigh* Hopefully the "jumbo raisins" will clear him up and he will have normal poop for a while....if not he sees his Dr on the 19th and I will insist that running some tests on his GI track may be a VERY good idea...if his Dr. doesn't agree, I'll get his endocrinist to listen to me....

Ah, the love of medical stuff. I need to get some of my teachers to advise me on how to get my doctors to listen to me & believe I know what I am talking about.....

need to study for another hour or so! Loves to all!

Week 2 done

I am now officially CPR certified, for adults, children & infants.

I spent 1/2 hr lab time practicing ROMs today (range of motion)
Me & a classmate started singing "neck, elbow, wrist & hands;wrists & hands" to the tune of "head, fingers knees & toes" to help us remember which joints need to be hyperextended.

I keep wanting to say "exsistential" instead of extension..... is that weird or what?

let's see if I can do the list by memory:

Neck:
flexion
extension
hyperextention
lateral flexion
side to side

Shoulder:
flexion
extension
internal rotation
external rotation
abduction
adduction
circumvention

Elbow:
flexion
extension
hyperextension
supination
pronation

Wrist
flexion
extension
hyperextension
adduction
abduction

fingers:
flexion
extensio
hyperextension
abduction
adduction

thumb:
flexion
extension
abduction
adduction
opposition

Hip;
flexion
extension
abduction
adduction
internal rotation
external rotation
circumvection

knee:
flexion
extension

ankle:
dorsal flex
plantar flex

foot/toes:
inversion
eversion
flexion
extention
adbuction
adduction

I have to name each movement as I do it and name the joint it's for.

I need to know that I need to do ROM w/ clients 3-4 times a day, both sides of body, 5 reps on each joint.

I need to know that I have to support the joints while I am doing the ROMs

That, PLUS a test on 8 chapters in pharmacology on monday.....

Not mentioning what is due on Tuesday...hi-ya.....

Nubs!

I just want to say that I am tired

BUT,
I did figure out how to type an outline on my MS word while reading the textbook that is on my computer. (no book to PC, PC to book...it's all electronic baby....)

(Mom is prolly thinking ..."Oy! The machina!!!!" *insert bizarre ukie expression like...."may a pickle grow out of your nose," or "you wear the shoe of a dog"*)

I'm glad I opted for a wide screen laptop.

I'm almost used to the smaller keyboard...I'm not having as many typos as I initially did.

NEW MUPPETHEAD RULE

Do not read a chapter without outlining it at the same time....this will save you time, effort, and sanity....in theory anyhow...

NEW MUPPETHEAD RULE OVER

Bub wasn't as off today as he was yesterday...but he was a tired and crabby little guy. Dorlaine suggested that he might be tired b/c he's afraid to sleep after the nightmare he had 2 nights ago...I think she may be right....but warm soy milk, baby einstein number's nursery, and pooh-bear lullaby's player got him asleep around 8:38 (that's when I was able to sneak out of his room).
I tried bring bub up to the alter during the children's message during church today. He wasn't as disruptive as usual...I'm still debating whether or not to participate with the children's message. Bub seems to distract the other kids from what Pastor Coleman is saying....yet, sometimes I think Bub is trying to follow along, but just can't focus long enough to get engaged. I try to help by signing main words to bub, and try to get him to sign along...it's only minimumly helpful...

It's so hard to know what to do to balance what I think (hope) Bub needs spiritually, and the needs of the rest of the congregation....BUT, Bub is a hit when it's time to share the peace, cuz he LOVES to shake hands & give occasional hugs to random people.

I'm going to bed now.

Love you all!!!
Neebs